Once again, it has been awhile since I posted. I didn't even realize it until Big Son ask me if I'm still doing it. In all honesty, I just haven't been in the mood to write anything. Losing Grandma was very hard and I needed to deal with that in my own way. The day she died was horrible because I couldn't be there with her or my family. I was in NC with the boys for race related things. Also, there were tornados in the area so picking up and leaving was hard. I think there was about 3 inches of rain within 24 hours. When I found out that Grandma had died, we were actually at a friends and it was hard to no lose it in front of everyone. Husband saw my face and walked me to another room. The boys came to see what was wrong, but they were already trying not to cry. They knew. Husband then took me back to our hotel so I could deal in my own way.
There are so many things to say about Grandma. I so glad that the boys are old enough that they will remember her. They have their own stories. I will always miss her and am so grateful for all she did for me. There will always be the times when I will want to call her and hear her voice to comfort me, or to tell her a story that will amuse her. But, she will always be in my heart and that to me is a comfort.
So, as I said, I'm dealing with it in my own way. But, knowing Grandma, she would not want any of us to be sad, or depressed, or dwell on her passing for to long. She would want us to hold our memories close and build on them with our own families. That is what I'm trying to do.
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