Update

So, Friday night the Big Son didn't get to wrestle. The opposing team didn't bring a wrestler in his weight class. So he won by default. Today, during warm ups he pulled a muscle in his back. Bad. He started his match, and within 8 seconds was up by 3 points from a take down. He then started wrestling on the ground and OH NO!! the back muscle injury kicked in, I saw his face go red and heard a moan. He ended up pinning his opponent!!! But....it was out of the "circle". Son stood up and looked at me with HUGE eyes and shook his head. Needless to say the other wrestler saw him playing with his back and took advantage. He ended up losing. BUT.. the coach was so happy with Big Son. Said he can't wait to see him wrestle without a back injury. Told him to go home, put on a heating pad and come to his house tomorrow to use the hot tub. told him that this week he will be using the hot tub and working with the trainer on stretches and lower body but not doing any thing that affects his back. He wants him healthy for next Sat.

One of the good things about the sports program at our school is that there is always a trainer at every practice and every game/meet that the kids go to. Also, the trainers are EMS and they are also certified physical therapist. And they are on top of EVERYTHING. Just this year, little son took a hard hit in football practice. The coaches wouldn't let him get up and called the trainer over from the HS football practice. She called me, after calling little son's DR, and explained what happened, that she talked to his DR as she was giving him a neurological test and then brought him to the training room and gave him the tests again. Also, from wrestling, Big Son got an ingrown hair on his knee. She wouldn't let him wrestle again until the DR gave him a release that it was not staph infection. Both times the DR called me (after hours at about 8:00 at night) and told me that I should be happy that the school is looking after their athlets and to feel comfortable with what the trainers are doing.

I am so exhausted!!! During the week working doesn't seem to really affect anything. But I am starting to notice a huge difference from Friday to Sunday. Those are the days I am trying to cram a lot in. One is that I am trying to do EVERYTHING for the boys. Especially since Husband has been helping so much. There have been 3 Dr. appointments that he has taken them to and 2 Orthodontist appointments. (I also have a feeling husband asked Dr. to call me about the appts. so I would feel better). I don't want husband to do anything for me, but he is always wanting to help. So much so that he even comes grocery shopping with me to get it done faster. Plus, he helps with the cleaning. Thank God he has taken on the Bathroom cleaning. That is one thing I HATE doing. So, I know!!! Pictures are needed and they will be comming.

Wrestling Weekend

So, yesterday after school Big Son had a wrestling scrimmage at Danbury High School and Little Son had wrestling practing. Today and tomorrow Little Son has practice and Big Son has his first "real" match and then has to be back at school at 6:45 tomorrow (SATURDAY) to make the 7:00 bus to Rye. He won't get home until ±8 pm. After Little Son's practice we will be heading down and watch the rest of the day.

This wrestling program is TOUGH!! Big Son is going to be exhausted on Sunday. He'll probably sleep all day. Little Son will start having it rough. Starting next week he has at least 2 matches a week until the end. Big Son about 3 a week. He also has to go away about 4 times to tournaments.

New Frontier

So. Tomorrow husband is heading to FL. One of his "good" customers owns a house in Sarasota and wants work done on the house. He is going with husband to go over the work and then probably husband will be gone for awhile to complete if everything works out good.

Husband of course is dreading going. One because he will be gone for 5 days and also because it will mean, possibly, that he will be gone for about 4 months and only home on weekends. With me now working, it isn't the most ideal situation, but work is greatly needed for husband. WE can make it work. That is what I have learned in the last 18 years(!) of being married. You learn to work together and pick up when needed. Fortunately my boys are old enough where they really help a lot. Between them vacuming, dusting, and cleaning their rooms twice a week the difference is amazing. They actually now will clean up more each night to make their chores less later in the week. But school, homework and sports on top of all that and they are doing way more than they should.

Fortunately for me, since they are both in wrestling, I am not comming home to kids being home alone for a couple of hours. They are great boys. Always looking for ways to keep themselves busy. My biggest problem with getting a job was not "being there" for them. But I am. I still am able to go to their matches. Still cook the same "home" meals they are use to. Plus, at their ages, if I couldn't trust them at home while I was at work, it would have meant I waisted 10 years raising them. They both call me when school is over (before they go to practice). Just to say HI. What more could I ask for?

So, husband going tomorrow is both good and bad. It is good because he will have work. Bad because he will be missing wrestling matches. Good because he will make more contacts. Bad because I wont be with him if the job goes through.

X-Mas Lights

So, today I put up half our outside X-Mas lights. Saturday I will finish with the boys. It was the perfect day to do it. Husband pulled the lights out of the shed and helped me test them. Then he lit a fire in the pit even though it was so warm we didn't need it. It made a great atmosphere though. This year I doubt we will have as many up as past years, but there are still alot. Today I put up about 25 strands of lights plus about 10 sets of net lights. With work, I don't have the time to spend an entire day or two to put up lights. Pictures to come.

Back - AGAIN

So, I don't know why I'm starting this again. My experience with blogging is from those that I've read. It seems that some people tend to but down others while not exposing what they themselves do. In my old blog, I myself may have been guilty of that too. But no more. I have had my share of being bashed on a blog (unduly), but the person doing the negative postings of me can not realize that she herself has been guilty of not always being the "moral" person she claims to be. So WHY bash others on your blog if you are unwilling to see your own faults? That is one thing I am not going to do. If I feel that I have done something wrong, something that doesn't always paint me as being a great person, I will write about it. I know that I do not always make the right decisions or have the best thoughts and feelings. Nobody does. But come on, do not always act like you are a saint and others cannot live up to what you deem the right way to raise children or the right way to act. Some people, I have learned, put down others to make themselves feel better. But what kind of life are they leading?

Everything my husband and I have is from what we have done. We have had rough times, money issues, etc. But I can hold my head up high and say that we figured it out on our own. I never ran for help to make my life easier. There were times I wanted to, but it wouldn't have been right. I am a married woman with children. Mommy and daddy, did their job and don't need to keep "helping" me out. I am greatful that if times were REALLY hard that I could turn to them, but I am not going to lean on them to "help" with every little thing.

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Obviously, it has been many months since I have posted. There are many reasons for that, but the main one is I have been SO ANGRY. Angry at alot of things. Sad also. Again, for so many things. I'm angry that Grandma is gone. I'm angry that when I call her phone (to this day) she doesn't answer. I'm angry and sad about all of the changes that have taken place. I'm angry for all the secrets that are being kept. I'm angry that people keep secrets. I'm angry for people looking out for themselves and do not understand other's feelings and situations. I'm angry that people don't really understand what is going on with others. It is easier for them to file people into groups and types and not understand struggles.

So, on this blog I will start to write again about what is going on in "my" family and what we are doing. But I am going to create another blog to really put my feelings out. There are somethings that need to be kept private. It has been my experience that when you state how you really feel about issues or situations, there are going to be people who will fight you and not listen. Especially, if like me, for so long you have held all the upset, anger and disappointment in. So, this will be my family blog, and the other, known only to my kids after a certain time, will be my "venting". I seem to be so misunderstood when I state my opinion (probably because I never did). I always let other people say what they wanted and never spoke out against them. I never stood up for what I felt and was trying to accomplish. The one time I did, major issue. So, I learned. There are only two people I can actually say what I feel to, everyone else is more comfortable with me keeping my mouth closed or just agreeing.

So, I'm back writing about the boys and what we are up to.