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Obviously, it has been many months since I have posted. There are many reasons for that, but the main one is I have been SO ANGRY. Angry at alot of things. Sad also. Again, for so many things. I'm angry that Grandma is gone. I'm angry that when I call her phone (to this day) she doesn't answer. I'm angry and sad about all of the changes that have taken place. I'm angry for all the secrets that are being kept. I'm angry that people keep secrets. I'm angry for people looking out for themselves and do not understand other's feelings and situations. I'm angry that people don't really understand what is going on with others. It is easier for them to file people into groups and types and not understand struggles.

So, on this blog I will start to write again about what is going on in "my" family and what we are doing. But I am going to create another blog to really put my feelings out. There are somethings that need to be kept private. It has been my experience that when you state how you really feel about issues or situations, there are going to be people who will fight you and not listen. Especially, if like me, for so long you have held all the upset, anger and disappointment in. So, this will be my family blog, and the other, known only to my kids after a certain time, will be my "venting". I seem to be so misunderstood when I state my opinion (probably because I never did). I always let other people say what they wanted and never spoke out against them. I never stood up for what I felt and was trying to accomplish. The one time I did, major issue. So, I learned. There are only two people I can actually say what I feel to, everyone else is more comfortable with me keeping my mouth closed or just agreeing.

So, I'm back writing about the boys and what we are up to.